I learned so much from Shelby and will never forget her.
Words cant express what I feel right now. The pain I feel is so horrible. I was not prepared for this type of pain for this lifetime. The void I feel inside, I know will never be filled, is absolutely heartbreaking.
Some People say that time heals all wounds, but does it? Or do we just get use to living with this pain we feel everyday. The emptiness!
The ONLY thing that helps is that I hear you everyday! I hear your voice, saying good morning, we have conversations, we talk about the old times, the memories, you flash images in my head of memories I have forgotten. Those moments are the ONLY things that is keeping me sane. Keeping me pushing til the next day.
The most fondest memories I do have are of us vacationing together. When we would go to the ocean, and walk the boardwalk late late at night. We always like it better when it was serene and quite and you could hear the waves crash! It was so relaxing, and you could just feel our bond grow even stronger if that was even possible! I remember the times when the drunks would come out....and they would get loud and you would be having conversations or answering back without them know....omg, that was so funny, of course I was worried they would hear you and start walking faster...lol Oh and the time we packed up the car and you, sarah and I went down to Key Largo, FL. That was a very memorable trip. Your first airplane ride to Texas, lol that was hilarious you were soooo scare and freakin out! HaHa I loved our Vacations together, we would always try to schedule our time off together. Those are the times I remember the most! The times of being Fun, energetic and silly.... of course I was the serious one....
I Love you so Much, ALWAYS AND FOREVER, I know we have had our ups and down through out the years but through it all, I knew you had my back, and you knew I had yours! I will continue to fight for you! I Love you, "Hearts Here, and guts around the side"